So we left our little baby for the first time to go to the movies. Our very first movie was "The Prestige." We went to the Edgewater Multiplex and enjoyed the film. We were out for about 4 hours. Akshra had her milk and slept with Puja's mom.

We went to meet Dr. Drew yesterday. It was a long drive to West Orange and it took us about an hour to get there. Then we waited for about 45 minutes in the waiting area and Dr. Drew finally showed up. Of course he was very happy that we had a daughter finally and he took Akshra in the lap and made many positive comments. She was calm and he called her "Worldly" at one point. He also hinted several times that we let her be the princess of the house for a while and there was no need for us to hurry for the 2nd one. Our clocks are not ticking and we should not worry. While it was strange for him to say that so many times it seemed obvious that people he consulted often rushed for the next one as soon as they can.

It was also a bit strange how times change. About a year and a half ago we were there oscillating between hope and fear and sure how life was going to treat us or how we would go on. Now, we are there with a beautiful child and big ear-to-ear smiles on our face.

The little darling is getting more and more fun. Though she is still tiny but responds once in a while and plays and generally moves her limbs frantically and has a smile on her face. It is an unbelievably wonderful site. I am taking so many pictures it is a little crazy. I am not sure where all these will go ten years down the road. Where will I keep them and how will I use them? Do I just learn to take fewer but better pictures? At least keep fewer but better pictures I guess.

Yes, my little baby is a month old today. I don't know how to come to terms with this fact. It is such a big moment and yet such a small one. Thinking of wher we are coming from it is indeed very good to know that we are parents now of a beautiful, healthy and adorable little daughter that is alaredy a month old. When I think back I know that today was always going to come but it seemed so far away. Today too it somehow seems distant. No matter what I tell myself it is still a bit surreal. It is still hard to come to terms with the fact that we are parents. While the time flys by day after day there is nothing to anchor us or make us stop for a second and understand that we indeed are now parents. We have the responsibility of a completely different human being that did not exist just a few weeks ago.

Wow! Even if for a little while, Life is beautiful, indeed.

I wonder what she thinks about when she gives me those looks. I sometimes think she is amazed at my gall. "What the hell were you even thinking? Did you just do that?" I don't know if she knows that when I screw up trying to hold her properly or with the right amount of gentleness it is purely from lack of practice and also from some belief that she is somehow "strong" and capable. It is a weird thing to say for a 30 day old tiny little girl but if you know what I mean. She has the lust for life that few adults can match. Infants want to live and they are so focused on it.

How incredible that she will be a month old tomorrow. How incredible!

Life Insurance suddenly seems like the most pressing matter. How one's life changes!

In less than a week Akshra is going to be a month old already. Times really does fly when it comes to kids. It is so amazing. Last night I was awake with her and it is such a joy when she finishes her feed. It is such a joy just to watch her trying to fall asleep.