So we head out today on our last trip as DINKs. By the time we are back, Puja will be 27 weeks pregnant and only about 12 left. I am looking forward to it as a great way to get away from work for a few days and also as this opportunity to enjoy these last few days together as a couple without the usual worries that will start to trouble us very shortly. We can still only imagine. We are not sure of course the extent of how our lives are going to change. I know they will change dramatically but I am not yet sure how we will react to it. Everyday within the few moments that I get from work and other chores, I like to think about the future and it generally feels OK. I am excited and looking forward to this new arrival. I want to have plans but then I also want to just go at it and figure out each day what it means to us and me and the people around us.

Canada is beautiful this time of the year with good weather and pleasant breeze. Let's see how it treats us.

Puja is over 6 months pregnant now and becoming bigger and bigger by the day. Every day we try to come to terms with the new life that awaits us and we try to understand how we are going to react to that. We think about the little life that is going to be with us every day, is going to sleep in our bed and that we have to take care of and that is going to depend on us for everything. Such complete dependence scares me a bit. How will we take care of it when we often find it hard to take care of ourselves? We are also constantly reminded that millions of babies are born every day and do more or less fine so it should not be such a big deal. However, the hype and hoopla worries us. Also, since we are much older than most couples we have had so much more time to be independent and have had so much more time to think about this over the years that it makes us very conscious of this new life that we are about bring in to this world.

Had another sonogram yesterday and the baby is now supposedly doing good at 1 and 1/2 pounds after 24 weeks. Another 15 to go. The baby was looking quite scary actually and Puja and I were laughing cautiously about it's strange looks. I convinced her that this was only because what we were watching was not a photo of the baby but its reflection of sound waves so nothing to worry about. The baby moves a lot and does all kinds of Yoga poses and was too busy playing with its feet yesterday. Gave the technician a hard time not opening its clinched fist. She had to beat it with her instrument to make it open.

Well, Puja gave quite a scare yesterday. She called in the afternoon complaining she had pain in her lower belly. She was rushed to the Jersey City Medical Center Hospital around 2.30 pm. I rushed from the office and got there as soon as I could. However, only to know that she was fine. She probably had infection.

Everything about this exercise is so frightening. One isn't quite so sure as to what is going to happen. The nerves play on you and you wish for things to be better somehow even when you know nothing really is wrong. The way we have waited for a child all these years does not help. We are anxious go get a baby in our hands. So anxious that sometimes we cannot enjoy this experience of the anxiety.

Puja doesn't eat all the things I heard expectant mothers eat. In fact, she does not binge on junk food at all. No chocolates or ice-cream for her. A minor salt rush once in a while but nothing more than that. She is generally healthy and very conscious about what she is eating. Good for her but also a bit bad because there is something charming about an expectant mother gorging herself with al kinds of food.