The baby is almost 13 and a half weeks now. It is just over two inches. Since we are in the 2nd trimester, he baby is going to grow quite fast now almost doubling every few weeks until it more or less reaches as big as it is going to be by the beginning of the 3rd trimester.

Puja has started feeling a bit more lethargic already and is sleeping better. Her belly isn't showing quite yet but she is complaining that she can barely fit into anything. But she's always said that almost as an excuse to buy more stuff :-)

Work is still preventing me from enjoying much of this in the relaxed easy-going way that I would like to enjoy it. I guess I need to keep going like this for another couple of weeks -- mid March at most and then make very strict rules about how many hours and when I work.

The weather has become very cold again and hopefully by mid March it will be warm enough to allow us casual after-dinner strolls by the riverfront. That should be fun.

Told my family yesterday. The baby is just about 12 weeks old. I was very hesitant as it seemed too early. I didn't want to make it too late either so I guess Valentine's day was as good as any other. My mother cried out loud and was very pleased. This will be the first birth in the family after the death of our father in 2001. Everyone seemed very excited and happy for us. This was a cause for great joy for all. Puja felt very good as well. She felt some kind of peace and seems happy.

Our baby will be 12 weeks this Wednesday. I am elated with joy but also scared. I am so busy at work that I haven't had the time to let this sink in my heart. In my incredibly work-oriented life, I don't know how this is going to work out. I don't know how I will do for the child that I must. Amidst joy there is this sense of great shame that I may be missing out on some important moments in my life. I am not sure what to do. I do feel connected to my job but I don't want to be miss out on parenthood. I guess eventually it all comes down to priorities. I will let life lead its course and decide what is right for me.

Puja has now been off from work for over two weeks. This new chiropractor, a Woody Allenesque, whiny, talkative little guy who runs this clinic in battery park city all on his own (no receptionist), seems to have helped her amidst all his strangeness and casualness. She can almost walk now without crying out in pain. Hopefully the next week will be better for her.

The baby will be 11 weeks on Monday. Quite exciting. We had gotten a sonogram done last week at Hoboken Radiology. Quite a contract from RMA. The doctor was rude, distant and just plain tuned out. She barely spoke or made any attempt to make us comfortable. I am not sure we are going back there again. Though, we were able to 'see' the heartbeat of the baby at about 160 beats per minute on the monitor through an external sonogram which supposedly reduced the chances of a miscarriage specially in the first trimester, where most miscarriages happen, to about 5 percent.